Am I a Good Human Being?

At times

You wonder

You question

Your existence

Your nature

And come up with

A critical question,

A crisis:

Am I a good human being?

Though

Strangers share their stories

Without fear,

But with trust.

Though animals

Come to you.

Though kids run to you

With a healing smile,

And you too heal them

With your radiance,

With your warmth,

With your love.

But at one point,

When someone puts you in

A critical situation,

You question your

own self,

Which you,

Which others,

Believed to be

Pure,

To be good.

Such people,

Such situations,

In fact help you

Introspect,

Retrospect,

Make you KNOW yourself,

To bring you out from the belief

That you are always good,

Bringing out the negative traits,

Though not inherent,

But they are there,

They do show up,

They could have been developed

Unconsciously.

But to identify,

But to recognise,

To realise,

And to have awareness is important.

It hurts.

It's painful

To realise

That the same heart,

Which comforted

Kids,

People,

Can cause

Wounds.

But

People who

Have that realisation

From the next time,

Will try not to repeat the same.

They can't guarantee

Completely eradicating it

In the first attempt.

But what's guaranteed is,

Compared to last time,

The next time,

The size of the wound

Would become smaller.

And one day,

No more

Will you cause such wounds...

The guilt is heavy to carry,

To have hurt someone.

The worst part is,

You feel sad for

The people

Who made you suffer as well.

That empathy is a bit dangerous,

But unavoidable as well

For some of us...

It takes time to heal from

The pain of having caused pain.

But it'll

Get better.

With this self-awareness

And realisation,

You don't find perfection,

But you find yourself,

As I did myself.

Though guilt

Remained,

So did

The willingness

To heal

And not repeat it again.